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TODAY AS ii SiT ALONE ii BEGiN TO WONDER WHAT iS MY PURPOSE...WHAT AM ii HERE TO DO?? AM ii THE BESTFRiEND THAT iS ALWAYS THERE NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE FiGHT ARGUE AND DiSAGREE?? AM ii THE BiG SiSTER WHO PROViDES GUiDENCE WHEN YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO?? HOW ABOUT THE LiTTLE SiSTER WHO RUNS YOUR WAY WHEN ALL ELSE HAS FAiLED? MAYBE THE FRiEND WHO iS A CONSTANT SHOULDER TO CRY ON AND THE PERFECT PERSON FOR ADViCE...AM ii THE GiRLFRiEND THAT iS ALWAYS THERE NO MATTER HOW BAD ii HURT iNSiDE??OR THE DAUGHTER WHO WAS BROUGHT UP KNOWiNG RiGHT FROM WRONG?? ALL THESE THiNGS WRAPPED iNTO ONE iS WHAT iiM TOLD, BUT ii DONT UNDERSTAND WHY ii FEEL THE WAY ii DO...LOST EMPTY && COLD...WiTH NO DESiRE...NO WANT NO YERN...iiM TiRED AND NO LONGER WANT TO PERFORM ii HATE HAViNG TO PUT ON A SHOWJUST TO GET ATTENTiONOR A SiMPLE HELLO