..a brighter day..

yayayayayaay.!! so im finally out of the roomate situation... well almost.! she decided to move out (thank you jesus) and my sister/friend/baby momma TiANA is moving in.!! this is wondeful im so happy... im not gonna lie i wish the situation w. roomie could've ended better but hey.! you live and you learn right.?! so now the next thing to do is ger her off the lease and get tiana on.!!

..b.scott's answer to everything..

..living arrangements..

okay so i was all excited about moving into my condo and having a roomie blah blah blah... right.? well THAT has quickly changed... VERY quickly.!! in just a matter of a few months my room mate has gone a dream to a nightmare and its all because of her damn boyfriend.!! who in the begining i chose to keep my comments to myself about, but i am now wishing i would've set down the rules in the begining.!! hmm... maybe i should go back two months so you can understand... sowe moved in dec. 19, 2008 and upon moving in i was told that the boyfriend(ill keep them nameless if you dont already know them.!) would only be staying over SOMETIMES(let me repeat...)SOMETIMES.!! and i was okay with SOMETIMES.! well the first week niether one of them were there because they were out of town for the holidays so i spent the week settleing in, unpacking and washing clothes in MY(you'll understand the bold in a sec.)MY washing machine. i did this for a week... cleaning and washing clothes. Well the FIRST DAY that roomie gets back she breaks MY washing machine.! and says "i think something is wrong w. your washine machine... it doesnt work." ummm YEA because you broke it duh.!! (ugh)... so time goes by (my washing machine is STILL broken) and im on a mad goosechase to try and find a good home for True(my puppy) and at first it was ALL bad.!! but shortly after good news(or what i thought was "good news" came on the horizon(read counterfit for details) so i was all excited and then let down shortly after... but as all of this is going on i start to notice damon being there a little more than "SOMETIMES" but being the nice person that i am i didnt say anything assuming that roomie would come to me. either that or i was seeing things... but soon after roomie came to me w. this boo hoo story about how evil a woman boyfriends mom was and how he had no place to go and asked how i felt about him staying there w. us. my immediate & natural response was "let me think about it" now i should've just followed my gut and said no...HELL NO.! right away but i thought about it bcuz i know how it is to not have a place to go... so i mulled it over for a few days talked to mi madre and she agreed that if he was gonna stay there then all bills should be split 3 ways... and for some that may be harsh but seeing as our COMBINED rent is $750 split three ways aint NOTHING and you cant find rent that cheap ANYWHERE not even the budget suits.!! (hahaha.!) well roomie didnt like that and thats when the backlash started.!! i suddenly became a selfish bitch blah blah blah... but let me remind you (those who read counterfit) i broke my ass to find true a good home so we wouldnt get evicted, lost my bank account, and faced fraud charges all because she kept bitching about MY dog living there...but when i tell her that her boyfriend cant stay now im rude and selfish.? Ha.! gimmie a break.!! man idk whats goin on all i know is shes moving out and before she leaves imma have a new washing machine.!!

..living arrangements..

okay so i was all excited about moving into my condo and having a roomie blah blah blah... right.? well THAT has quickly changed... VERY quickly.!! in just a matter of a few months my room mate has gone a dream to a nightmare and its all because of her damn boyfriend.!! who in the begining i chose to keep my comments to myself about, but i am now wishing i would've set down the rules in the begining.!! hmm... maybe i should go back two months so you can understand... sowe moved in dec. 19, 2008 and upon moving in i was told that the boyfriend(ill keep them nameless if you dont already know them.!) would only be staying over SOMETIMES(let me repeat...)SOMETIMES.!! and i was okay with SOMETIMES.! well the first week niether one of them were there because they were out of town for the holidays so i spent the week settleing in, unpacking and washing clothes in MY(you'll understand the bold in a sec.)MY washing machine. i did this for a week... cleaning and washing clothes. Well the FIRST DAY that roomie gets back she breaks MY washing machine.! and says "i think something is wrong w. your washine machine... it doesnt work." ummm YEA because you broke it duh.!! (ugh)... so time goes by (my washing machine is STILL broken) and im on a mad goosechase to try and find a good home for True(my puppy) and at first it was ALL bad.!! but shortly after good news(or what i thought was "good news" came on the horizon(read counterfit for details) so i was all excited and then let down shortly after... but as all of this is going on i start to notice damon being there a little more than "SOMETIMES" but being the nice person that i am i didnt say anything assuming that roomie would come to me. either that or i was seeing things... but soon after roomie came to me w. this boo hoo story about how evil a woman boyfriends mom was and how he had no place to go and asked how i felt about him staying there w. us. my immediate & natural response was "let me think about it" now i should've just followed my gut and said no...HELL NO.! right away but i thought about it bcuz i know how it is to not have a place to go... so i mulled it over for a few days talked to mi madre and she agreed that if he was gonna stay there then all bills should be split 3 ways... and for some that may be harsh but seeing as our COMBINED rent is $750 split three ways aint NOTHING and you cant find rent that cheap ANYWHERE not even the budget suits.!! (hahaha.!) well roomie didnt like that and thats when the backlash started.!! i suddenly became a selfish bitch blah blah blah... but let me remind you (those who read counterfit) i broke my ass to find true a good home so we wouldnt get evicted, lost my bank account, and faced fraud charges all because she kept bitching about MY dog living there...but when i tell her that her boyfriend cant stay now im rude and selfish.? Ha.! gimmie a break.!! man idk whats goin on all i know is shes moving out and before she leaves imma have a new washing machine.!!

..counterfit..

my day started off normal got dressed drove to work..oh wait i found out that the guy that was gonna buy true sent couterfit money orders so bofa closed my acct. for fraud of course.! so now i need to print off EVERY email between me and john doe go get the copies of the checks go to the police station file a police report go BACK to the bank and see if the will MAYBE release the my payroll check to me oh and never have a bank account with them again.!! so i immdediatly LEFT WORK i couldnt function.! i mean how could this happen.? to me.? to True.? why.?? it was too early in the morning niether the bank or police station were open so i drove home... and sat for a minute... but i was too mad to just sit there so i did what i normally did CLEANED.!! i cleaned my kitchen well more like i scrubbed my stove...yea i was mad.!! after that i felt better turned on my Sasah...Fierce pulled out my make up and went in... shit i needed to feel good about somethin.!!

so once i got to the bank they gave me the copy of the checks but took my debit card.!! ugh...!! so now im REALLY Really without money.!! and hungry THANK GOD i have food at home and can cook.!! anyway i left the bank got in my car angain and started to cry but i quickly stopped myself bcuz i spent a good 35minutes on the make.up and wasnt about to eff that up nope not at all.!! so i quickly turned the radio put the car in reverse and did it mov'n outta there.!

ugh.! the police station...i've never liked coming here this was the third time, the first didnt envovle me... domestic violence ill let the culprits remain nameless...the second was bcuz tmobile changed their policies on getting a new fone if it had been stolen and required a police report before a new fone would be issued, and the third more recent when i got in the car accident bcuz the lady in the lexus didnt want to yield.... and now again here i was back at the police station (thank goodness it was north las vegas.!) the lady at the counter LOOKED nice (keyword.?) i was soon proven wrong... after explaining my story and providing my evidence she was on the phone w. a dective who made me tell the story AGAIN.!! after his approval i was finally able to fill out a police report... i think they thought i was guilty and were trying to figure out the best way to arrest me... telling my story to the woman a secod time was like trying to pull teeth from a lion with a muzzle on.!! she just wasnt listening.!! after about an hour of explaining, paperwork, telephone calls, questions and funny looks i finally had my police report and was headed back to the bank....

im greatful that the people at the bank were nice and understanding... too bad there wasnt anything they could do. except give me my payroll check tomorrow... i know i know a silver lining on every cloud.!!


i just want to curl up in my bed under the blankets close my eyes REALLY hard open them and start today all over w.out the counterfit checks.!!

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..comfort food..

Okay so today was a bad day... actually this whole weekend was bad and ive been spending the past two days recovering... yesterday (1.12) i was supposed to go to the doctor but that was a failed attempt due to the ALL DAY traffic on the 15 North & South So i made my way to Town Square and walked around for a bit... just taking it all in the last week of 2008, Demetria visiting, B.Cam & Jordan, Sherleta's fish, Dymond, the first week of 2009, Salome & her cousin, my mom, Bruce...and before i knew it i had broke down and bought ice cream even though ive been sick for the past 3 days which i also think was inflicted by the events of the past week but who knows...
As i attempted to make my way back home traffic STILL hadn't cleared so i made my way to Planet Hollywood with a sudden mission for sunglasses ( H&M in Town Square didnt have ANY.!!) After getting new shades at Urban Outfitters i found myself in the Build-A-Bear workshop and was quickly reminded 1. why i dont like Valentines Day and 2.of ALL the HORRIBLE things that had happend in the past weekending so i left.!!! and came home... after braiding my friend Alvin's hair i showered climbed in my bed assumed the fetal position and allowed myself to be consumed w. every single emotion i thought i digested with the ice cream earlier...
Today was a blur of frustration, anger, hurt, and a need for comfort food... so once i got off i made it a point to come home and recover again... but this time w. another type of comfort food since the ice cream from yesterday didnt cure the itch... so i made Meatloaf, mashed potatoes and string beans... and it hit the spot.!! but im not sure how long this warm feeling will last... guess i better plan for tomorrows dinner because this looks like this is gonna be a LOONG rehab session...

..never say never..

another cliche' statement i know but yet again it seems to hold true right along w. the rest... i mean honestly if you think about 98.9% of the time whenever someone says "im not gonna..." they are usually temeted ith the very thing they said they wouldnt do and then further consumed with what they wouldnt by actually doing it.!! i just find it funny how the very things people speak against happen.!! not because of fate or "bad luck" but because the universe is just programed to fill voids and if by simply saying "No" is the trigger i cant imagine what the word "Never" would do... so for all those people who deem me crazy for living by the saying "whatever happens, happens." im sure are the same people who have said stuf like: "ill never let a man hit me, ill never get pregnant, ill never have a childish boy/girlfriend, ill never date a man w. kids, ill never work in retail, ill never be an insecure boy/girlfriend blah blah blah so on and so fourth..." are now kicking themselves as they look around at their surroundings evaluating their situations many for the first time and realizing "Oh Shit.!! im doing what i said i would never do." and they're kicking pretty hard...

..there cant be two Alpha's..

so as i come to an end of reading the Twilight series in a mear two weeks the only thing that i can think about right now is how "there cant be two Alphas" and how a pack will seperate and follow whom ever they see fits them not the other way around... i never realized how that could apply to the real world until i was down to nothing because God is up to something... with this realization i also noticed that im mad...angry actually and really sad, or maybe hurt would be a better choice of words... but i know that im the Alpha in my own life and that i can no longer allow the person who taught me all the time, encouraged me to always do right and to ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS remain a lady didnt even consider my feelings... reguardless if the situation was wrong they NEVER thought about how it would leave me emotionally and mentally weak... even if wasnt my fault that doesnt change the way EVERYONE that was envolved actions would affect me...especially since they were the person that was envolved the most...and thats the part that hurts the worst...

..practice what you preach..

i know its VERY cliche' but im starting to realize how TRUE these little "life sayings" are important to not only pay attention to but follow... this past weekending has been eventful enough for me as i finally ran across Mr. Hyde (well maybe ran across isnt the best choice of words maybe i should say shown against my will w.out a thought as to how it would make me feel even if it was wrong.) in a unsurprising,eventful,sad story... placing back where i was two weeks before the end of 2008... ALONE