..behind every strong black man..

there's a stronger black woman... thats what we've been told from the time we were little... and for me i never thought that it was true until i started dating...and even then i realized that i 1. wasnt dating men and 2. they werent strong at all and i soon came to realize this more and more as i had friends come to me with their troubles reguarding their relationships with their "strong black men" (lol) and the more i would offer advice and listen to the stories the less i would believe the statement...

this went on for quite sometime... actually it wasnt until this years election did i begin to have a change of heart and tap into two emotions/feelings that i shut down a VERY long time ago...(hope & love)

watching President ( i have soo much joy w. saying that) Barack Obama and his wife Michelle (along w. their children of course.!) made me realize that no matter how busy someone might be, no matter how much someone may have on their plate, no matter what club group organization or say i dont know a COUNTRY they just so happen to be involved with or in charge of... you always Always ALWAYS have to keep you loved ones close... not supporting you from the sidelines but right there in the game with you...

futhermore no matter how important you become and no matter if you have and ENTIRE COUNTRY awaiting your first move as a man your first job was son husband and father and you cant forget that... and President Elect Obama is the perfect example of this... throughout this entire election we witness a many occasions where President Obama acknowledged not only his family but the support from his wife... not to mention article about "Why He Loves His Wife" in US weekly...

i think it not only obvious but apparent that President Obama makes time for Michelle... and the time that he does make for her isnt time she has to share with the United States of America, it isnt time where hes her President (yes shes a citizen who has to follow laws in this country too...), it isnt time that she has to be Mom and hes Dad... its ginuine time where its JUST Michelle and Barack no intruptions... time they spend together daily... he makes sure that she still feels like shes his number one... even if hes running country and fixing the mess that Bushy guy made.! and im almost positive he doesnt forget to call her back and if so we ALL know she'll get in his ass...

this relationship is the perfect example of not only love but the saying that every black woman hears from the time she is little...

behind every strong black man theres a stronger black woman

..will you say yes.?..

over these past few weeks i found myself not being able to worship... and not having a reason to be thankful but i turned this on and it made everything better.... often times we get too comfortable in our everyday lives and we forget why we're here and what our TRUE purpose is... its not to get caught up in the he say she say and the judgement and the gossip, its not to get caught up in peer pressue and worldly things becuase we dont want to be "left out" WHO CARES.?! if you want to get yo praise on the go ahead.!! rejoices and be glad in it... and the people who TRUELY care and are what you condiser friends/family or whatever with get up and praise,cry and worship right along with you... so as you push playblisten to the words of the song and really allow them to pour in(grab some tissue you may cry) and for those who dont believe in a higher power then this isnt for you and you can go on about your way no hard feelings but for those of you who are like me... prepare to worship.!!





PART ONE....






PART TWO...

..my sunday night date..

okay sooo as we all know my friends a very Very VERY limited... due to the fact that girls are messy and fake and im tired of doing for others who dont do for me... or at least say thank you... so my limited list has gone from one person (ms. ashley lynnae) to two (ms. Salome... her soul singz) i really do love that girl.!!

now as girls we tend to have these things called emotions and we cant always predict which way they will go...and recently Salomes have been going left when they need to be going right... sensing this i had to do a SERIOUS intervention... hence my sunday night date....

after a long day of work for salome and shopping for myself and a good 2hr. nap we went to Ra at the fashion Show for Happy Hour... and for those who have been to Ra you know the food is splendiforious(in the words of B.Scott... check him out.!!) and those who havent and the few that ive been asking time and time again ha ha SUCKAS.! you missed out bcuz me and my boo had a GREAT time and had WONDERFUL food.!! and for just a short period of time i was capable to get Salomes mind off of the bad so we could enjoy the good over some delicious eats.!! Ra definitly gets 5 stars from both of us... and we will be back next sunday... its an offical date nite...


see you there maybe.?

..respect..

i am offically done.!!
yep its over... nomore niggas...
none at all... ive come to terms
with the fact that niggas are just
DIS-RE-SPECT-FUL
plain and simple
nothing more and
a WHOLE lot less...
thats forsure...ugh.!!
my weekend was throughly disrupted
by disrespectful ass niggas.!!
by these lude rude obnoxious actions
ive been forced to change my number
for the THiRD time....

ugh..


..mylife..

..silly hoes..

yea i had to bring it back... im a little disturbed at the moment.... i just mite make my own video.!! anyway peep the vid to see where im coming from...

..stilettos, pumps in the club..

well more like my job... so as i stepped into Republic Services with my black patent leather round toe baby doll stilettos on... i was asked,

"Schae, why do you always come to work dressed up.? ive only seen you in sneakers like 3 times..."

now i know what some of you are thinking... "BiTCH.! why do you care while youre wearing Fruit of the Loom sweats to work EVERYDAY.!!" now outside of the workplace that just might have been my response but because i have a good job and dont want to lose it i gathered my thoughts and responed in the most lady like tone i could force out and simple said,

"because i feel more comfortable in heels... theyre like my bestfriend.!"

and kept on my way... but as i proceeded up the elevator and into my office i stopped and thought, "why do people make such a big deal about what everyone else is doing... ESEPCIALLY women.!!??" so in this thought process i reached my office and immediatley put on Christina Aguilera's Back to Basics on and played track 11...Still Dirrty for a little confidence boost and went on about my day... so here have a listen... still dirrty

..confidence is key, right.?..

is it just me or does it seem like when youre very confident in whatever you do or who you are it makes others uncomfortable...

like when men that are gay are comfortable and confident with their sexuality and have no issue with telling you that they are gay.. it makes other people that around feel uncomfortable causing them to all of a sudden question there own sexuality as if they were to have all of a sudden turned gay just because the man next to them is...

or when a woman has no issue talking about sex and isnt ashamed... she not only is suddenly looked at like a whore but dont let a grandma be around because she is instantly seen has fast among a few other not so nice sterotypes...

why is confidence so intimidating.? but everyone demands it... i mean its soo damn popular Ms. Britney Spears says it herself...

"Confidence is a must, cockiness is a pluss, edginess is a rush..."

if its come to the point where we're putting it in the lyrics of our songs... there should be no reason at all why it should make anyone uncomfortable... i mean its what you asked for... CONFIDENCE right.?

..i dont mind..

because you dont matter.... lol.! i know very myspace but its true and i really had to remind myself of this cute little saying... this past weekend i found myself subjected to what we'll call hater-isim... lol and i was mad,hurt,upset,pissed off and ready to "whoop that trick" but i had to remind myself::

"mind over matter... i dont mind because you dont matter..."

and calm myself down and not allow my feelings to get hurt by others hater-ish actions... which resulted in a conversation with myself...

scheherazade: why are you getting mad.? do you really care.?
schae: i shouldnt but i do...
scheherazade: well then dont, its not like you cant live without them right.?
schae: yea i know but...
scheherazade: but what.? you thought if you were nice to them theyd be nice to you.? hahaha no foolish one... they didnt mind so you didnt matter... see the point.? dont get caught up in others opinions... because youll end up living your life for their judgement and not for yourself... it is better to be loved by few then to be hated by many...

which really and quickly put things in perspective for me... so i THANK YOU.!! for your hater-ish and juvinille behavior... for without it i wouldnt have gotten back to my typical say what i want self... what do we tell them Ashley.?

im a force to be reckoned with...so get to work.!!

..insane or just stupid..

i read that the ultimate definition of insanity is doing the samething over and over--and expecting different results...

well shit what if you arent doing it on purspose.? what if you just keep finding yourself in the same situations over and over.? i guess that would still make you insane for continuing to participate... or is that stupidity.? ignorance maybe.?

that would explain why you chose to stay... but only a woman completly out of her mind could continue to love a man thats not only cheating on her but is fully aware and still lets him walk out of the door every night knowing that he wont come back until the next morning... so maybe it is insanity...

but when does stupidity step in.? when youre told time and time again that he doesnt want to be with you and to stop calling and you leave 103missed calls on his screen and 68unread messages in his inbox [true story] holding up his line so much that his own sister cant get through to let him know shes outside waiting in the cold with a sick puppy... is that stupid or insane or just plain crazy.?!

"its okay to be in love. in fact, its one of the greatest abilities in this lifetime. its NOT okay to be submerged so much in someone else that you forget the person you were, that they fell in love with."-Salome S.

..a love like..

(*w. inspiration frm big sis Salome)

i want a love that makes me smile with just one thought of you
the kind where i fall asleep on your chest not because i was tired
but because i like the sound of your heart beat...

the love where you text me "wyd.?" and i know it really means "i love you"
or the kind where i toss and turn at night because you arent by my side
that love that makes us find each other across the room just to quickly look away...

i need a love that makes me value who i am just that much more
because he validates not just my body but my feelings too
or the love that makes me call my daddy and all i can do is smile when he asks about you

and check this out i want that kind of love that lets us have our own inside jokes
that make us bring them up randomly just to get a response...

the kind of love that makes me giggle and smile everytime someone mentions your name
you know the kind that makes you blush & gives you butterflies...
the love that makes me appreciate our distence because absense makes the heart grow fonder

and oooo shit i want that love that makes me bring a tear to my eye when we're intimate
because we're not just intimate but into each other kind of love
that kind of love you only read about in fairy tales and wish would come true
sorta love...

i want that love that makes us send random pictures to each other
not because its the cool thing to do, but because we're both secretly jealous
and only sent the pictures for a random thought of the other in the middle of the day
dont forget about what you got at home kind of love

the love that makes me love them hatin ass females that came before me but failed
you know the kind that makes you show yo lady off because shes yours if not for any other reason
kind of love...

the kind that makes us confident to be together
but even stronger to be apart because we never know when we'll see each other again type of love
yo know the love that makes my ass hop on a plane, fly across the country, just because i missed you
even though we both know i HATE flying... yep.! THAT kind of love...

and peep this i want the kind of love that makes me forget about every other kiss and hug
in the world because yours are the only ones i need ever again...
the kind that makes me write your name and hearts on a piece of paper all day
when i know i should be working...


but you see ive found this love quite sometime ago
it was just one of those things that had to grow...
and it just brings a smile to my face just thinking about
our love...