..worth the while..

good morning.!! geez its early.!! anyway so i get these daily inspirational quotes sent to my phone every moring to get my day started on a positive note... you know like affirmations and stuff... well today i got my "inspirations" and it read....

Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely...

hmmmm....? now i immediately began to think about this major decision that ive ben toying with over the past few months... and i thought "Well how ironic that im contemplating what i want to do and then i get that quote... a sign maybe.? or cpuld it just be further confirmation to what i already know....

Saturday after 'Takin it To the Streets' i said "Fuck'em.!!" and Jonito(i <3 you.!!) replied with....

no dont say fuck'em you just know what you have to do now...

as he took another shot.! and its true... i cant be mad it was a learning experience... not a waste of my time because i have learned alot not only about people but also about myself.... and i can also say that i have grown alot in this situation... so much so that ive grown OUT.! of this situation... i mean i DiD say "Vive para el baile" right.?? well thats what i have to do... im sure its gonna rub some feathers and make a fe people mad but its not about them its about me, and i have to do what makes Schae happy first and foremost...

so my decision is made and set in stone now i just have to wait until March 2009, and pray that in the meantime i dont get into more trouble then ive already gotten into with all this "freetime" on my hands... damn i miss August, that was a good month.!!

..I.N.D.E.P.E.N.D.E.N.T..

yes ladies and gentlemen the day i have been waiting for has FiNALLY come.! im moving into my Condo December 19, 2008.!! im soo effin excited isk what to do w. myself... all i want to do is sleep when i get there... i think about parties in 2009 after i get some much needed rest.!!

..culture shock..

oh how i LOVE LOVE LOVE thee.!!

so this weekend while EKETC. was at prelude i stayed in vegas saved about 100bucks in food gas room and board and went the "Takin it To The Streets" and as usual it was effin GREAT.!! Culture Shock Las Vegas "went it" and Meccamee "did work" with a guest apperance from Mr. Jaymazing himself (SURPRiSE.!!) it was a REALLY great show... and ALL the crews/teams did a really good job...!!

But you know 'Takin itTo The Streets' wouldnt be itself without a party... a whole weekend long party with CSLV and CSDC OMG.!! we had soo much fun.... Saturday after the show we all went to the bestest boyfriends and had a pre.game that just turned into the real game and drank(well they drank yall know i dont) and passed the blunt(didnt do that either...DAMN.! Repulic Services.!! hahaha.!!) then i found myself being the super bestfriend and making sure Lynnae didnt die in her sleep... long story short i didnt make it home til about 3.40ish maybe 4am... and slept ALL day on sunday... no church for me, i mean it is the Sabath...you know a day of rest so thats what i did til about 4.30. in the afternoon...

once i felt alive again i got up got dressed called the baby momma and made din din plans at Ra (sunday night happy hour.!) with her my nephew and the bestest of course.!! my Nephew is sooooo effin cute and too damn funny... how i love him soo.!! after dinner the bestest and i made our was to the orleans to go bowling with CSLV and CSDC.... and ive never seen so many people "go in from the top full out with music"when it came to bowling... lol but we had a really great time with dollar bowling and dollar drinks.!! yea you know we acted a fool.!!

as the night came to a close and me and the bestfriend realized it was 2.30a and we both had to be at work her at 5 me at 7 we needed to vacat the building so we could get a nap before work... well my nap was soon interrupted at 7.15a not by the sound of my alarm but but the look in the mirror and the realization that i have Pink Eye.!! ahhhhhh.!! eww gross yuck.!!!

so now im sitting at UMC quick care wating for them to call me in the back... no work today and usually that would be a good thing but not when the flip side is having pink eye....


..mylife..

..6 months 13days & counting..

so its ALREADY December and the year is over basically... and anyone who knows me and has known me for awhile knows that as soon as December hits i start birthday planning... well this year im planning for my 21st... and im obberly excited.!! like i REALLY cant wait... i have it all planned out i mean it would only make sense it is a MONTH LONG celebration.!! with the exception of 2 days due to my little sister and twinns bday on the 18th and my lover boy quincy's day on the 21st... oh and i cant forget my bday buddy christina who has the same exact bday as me... how rare is that.?? so of course we're celebrating together.!!

stay tuned for for planning details....

..behind every strong black man..

there's a stronger black woman... thats what we've been told from the time we were little... and for me i never thought that it was true until i started dating...and even then i realized that i 1. wasnt dating men and 2. they werent strong at all and i soon came to realize this more and more as i had friends come to me with their troubles reguarding their relationships with their "strong black men" (lol) and the more i would offer advice and listen to the stories the less i would believe the statement...

this went on for quite sometime... actually it wasnt until this years election did i begin to have a change of heart and tap into two emotions/feelings that i shut down a VERY long time ago...(hope & love)

watching President ( i have soo much joy w. saying that) Barack Obama and his wife Michelle (along w. their children of course.!) made me realize that no matter how busy someone might be, no matter how much someone may have on their plate, no matter what club group organization or say i dont know a COUNTRY they just so happen to be involved with or in charge of... you always Always ALWAYS have to keep you loved ones close... not supporting you from the sidelines but right there in the game with you...

futhermore no matter how important you become and no matter if you have and ENTIRE COUNTRY awaiting your first move as a man your first job was son husband and father and you cant forget that... and President Elect Obama is the perfect example of this... throughout this entire election we witness a many occasions where President Obama acknowledged not only his family but the support from his wife... not to mention article about "Why He Loves His Wife" in US weekly...

i think it not only obvious but apparent that President Obama makes time for Michelle... and the time that he does make for her isnt time she has to share with the United States of America, it isnt time where hes her President (yes shes a citizen who has to follow laws in this country too...), it isnt time that she has to be Mom and hes Dad... its ginuine time where its JUST Michelle and Barack no intruptions... time they spend together daily... he makes sure that she still feels like shes his number one... even if hes running country and fixing the mess that Bushy guy made.! and im almost positive he doesnt forget to call her back and if so we ALL know she'll get in his ass...

this relationship is the perfect example of not only love but the saying that every black woman hears from the time she is little...

behind every strong black man theres a stronger black woman

..will you say yes.?..

over these past few weeks i found myself not being able to worship... and not having a reason to be thankful but i turned this on and it made everything better.... often times we get too comfortable in our everyday lives and we forget why we're here and what our TRUE purpose is... its not to get caught up in the he say she say and the judgement and the gossip, its not to get caught up in peer pressue and worldly things becuase we dont want to be "left out" WHO CARES.?! if you want to get yo praise on the go ahead.!! rejoices and be glad in it... and the people who TRUELY care and are what you condiser friends/family or whatever with get up and praise,cry and worship right along with you... so as you push playblisten to the words of the song and really allow them to pour in(grab some tissue you may cry) and for those who dont believe in a higher power then this isnt for you and you can go on about your way no hard feelings but for those of you who are like me... prepare to worship.!!





PART ONE....






PART TWO...

..my sunday night date..

okay sooo as we all know my friends a very Very VERY limited... due to the fact that girls are messy and fake and im tired of doing for others who dont do for me... or at least say thank you... so my limited list has gone from one person (ms. ashley lynnae) to two (ms. Salome... her soul singz) i really do love that girl.!!

now as girls we tend to have these things called emotions and we cant always predict which way they will go...and recently Salomes have been going left when they need to be going right... sensing this i had to do a SERIOUS intervention... hence my sunday night date....

after a long day of work for salome and shopping for myself and a good 2hr. nap we went to Ra at the fashion Show for Happy Hour... and for those who have been to Ra you know the food is splendiforious(in the words of B.Scott... check him out.!!) and those who havent and the few that ive been asking time and time again ha ha SUCKAS.! you missed out bcuz me and my boo had a GREAT time and had WONDERFUL food.!! and for just a short period of time i was capable to get Salomes mind off of the bad so we could enjoy the good over some delicious eats.!! Ra definitly gets 5 stars from both of us... and we will be back next sunday... its an offical date nite...


see you there maybe.?

..respect..

i am offically done.!!
yep its over... nomore niggas...
none at all... ive come to terms
with the fact that niggas are just
DIS-RE-SPECT-FUL
plain and simple
nothing more and
a WHOLE lot less...
thats forsure...ugh.!!
my weekend was throughly disrupted
by disrespectful ass niggas.!!
by these lude rude obnoxious actions
ive been forced to change my number
for the THiRD time....

ugh..


..mylife..

..silly hoes..

yea i had to bring it back... im a little disturbed at the moment.... i just mite make my own video.!! anyway peep the vid to see where im coming from...

..stilettos, pumps in the club..

well more like my job... so as i stepped into Republic Services with my black patent leather round toe baby doll stilettos on... i was asked,

"Schae, why do you always come to work dressed up.? ive only seen you in sneakers like 3 times..."

now i know what some of you are thinking... "BiTCH.! why do you care while youre wearing Fruit of the Loom sweats to work EVERYDAY.!!" now outside of the workplace that just might have been my response but because i have a good job and dont want to lose it i gathered my thoughts and responed in the most lady like tone i could force out and simple said,

"because i feel more comfortable in heels... theyre like my bestfriend.!"

and kept on my way... but as i proceeded up the elevator and into my office i stopped and thought, "why do people make such a big deal about what everyone else is doing... ESEPCIALLY women.!!??" so in this thought process i reached my office and immediatley put on Christina Aguilera's Back to Basics on and played track 11...Still Dirrty for a little confidence boost and went on about my day... so here have a listen... still dirrty