..delayed reactions..

so as i sit here at work and pretend to be productive i can't help but to focus on my mind that seems to be moving 500 miles a minute with ALL the things that happend YESTERDAY.???
im apparently still having some type of system overload that is making my hard drive have a delayed reaction to the stuff that went on around me yesterday...


where do i begin.???

let me start w. my favorite computer wiz kid...lol i KN0W you enjoy monden technology just as much as i love going to wal.mart at 1am but in the future can you please warn me the next time you decide to infom me about poker tables w. computers as dealers... table surfaces that are efficently limitless and tech savey... or monkeys in japan that's can serve me drinks in a bar... its all to much to deal with at one time...SURPRiSE.?


i need to stop and show some SERi0US appreciation to one of my brothers... thank you BiGHEAD.!! i didnt realize how your attempts to pull me back to who i am where in a good effort to make me smile again... i know you miss that(my smile) bcuz i miss it too... THANK YOU SOO MUCH.! FAM[ily]

but umm...

to the young lady who seems to think she's a parot... let me make this short and simple _:: its not becoming nor is it at all lady like... especially if you're attempting to be someones friend... somewhere in the job description of friend it says something about keep personal things personal and understand that when someone comes to you in confidence reguardless of it includes other people that doesn't give you the right to speak your mind... that's the easiest way to lose not only a friend but their trust inturn.


now about these previously mention FAKE iNSECURE FL00ZiES(thx daff..lol) girls...its still amazes me everytime.! for more details feel free to view daffi's blog... and if the shoe fits then maybe you needed to go shopping.


oh yes.! to the one that has so causally made me apart of their "neglection list" not by choice or force but bcuz time evades you daily and youve become just that busy... let me remind you that up until your recent saga you happend managed your relationship just fine for 2.5 years and communicating was far from an issue... i should know seeing as im still waiting for some fone calls back bcuz you need to commit to that... ive sed it before and although i dislike doing it ill repeat myself... "yes im patient but that doesn't mean ill wait forever".


which brings me to the MAiN EVENT the ku.da.graw the GRAND FiNALE... well maybe not bcuz ill still have more to say but you understand...

for the one who failed to think about my feelings and understand my patience... you hurt me..[period] not me physically but me emotionally and im not sure if you care to remember... bcuz its not like you dont know bcuz you've already admitted your fault... but more like you've just flipped an internal light switch that has cut every EVERYTHiNG off.!! so let me just say this, we've established that im different and we know that im a "rare breed" so since we know this can we (well you not me i already understand how i work) attempt to be a lot more understanding that the one thing we can't control other then love is time and both of those can only come w. patience which you've witnesed in the flesh...(Hi.!) so don't be so quick to jump the gun bcuz a short temper allots for misunderstandings and hurt feelings and you've alredy accomplished the 2nd one...


so now that ive had a partial reboot my systems aren't down nor are they running slow but i do suggest that this hard drive has a disk clean up or some spyware installed soon bcuz before we all know it im gonna CRASH.!!

p.s. & if these words seemed to hit you then i didnt mean to miss


..mylife..