..batman returns..

all i can say isOh Shit.!! so a few days ago i was at my sisters house and she told me that she wanted to start "dancing" so i said okay and that i would get in contact with my connect and see if he could get her into a club...

well my connect happens to be my ex... and this isnt just any ex this is the first ex...the big ex...the one i was gonna marry ex... yep you guessed it Ceasaryc;better known as Cez or B@tm@n(for you Palamino goers..lol)... so i text him and let him know that "Dia Mon" wants to start dancing and to do me that favor... well in the mist of this we begin conversing... and somehow i found myself with him last night at a friend of his to play spades... knowin damn well my ass dont know how to play no darn spades... but HiFi got cancled and i yet again didnt want to be home (i really need to move.!) so i was like what the heck.? why not i mean im alot older have alot more control and my interest is so obviously somewhere else(Salome BG is in 94 days woot woot.!!!]

so he comes to get me and that was the first eye opener... he got a new car, yay him.! so i get in the car and the first thing i notice is his face is fat.! but his body isnt.... (is that possible.? second eye opener) so as we get to his friends house we had to sit outside and wait for like 20minutes before we decide to go to the Canery to get his friends keys while he was on the craps table...

so as the night progresses... i have a drink (just one had to go to work plus they didnt have the BB Merlot...lol) and ate good... his friend is a really good cook.!! but 1.30a approaches and i decide that its time to go home... so he takes me home right away which is a surprise bcuz in the past i would have to fight w. him to take me home... but not this time he just grabbed the keys and we walked outside...

as we pulled up to my house i prepare to get out the car and look at him and realize that hes giving me that "Schae youre bullshittin" look and i say "i hate when you look at me like that.!" well in this process of idk what youre talking about... he proceeds to pull me in an kiss me.!! ahhhhh.!! i KNOW.! watthehey.?! so he continues w. this conversation about how we should just see what happens leaning in the direction of trying again...



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now my momma and ms. mya angelou have always said when someone shows you who they are the first time... and after almost 2.5 years and two chances with this person you would think i figured out who he his by now right.?! EXACTLY.!!! okay just had to make sure we were on the same page...



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now i wont lie... i was just a little bit curious to see what this 22yrs old Ceasaryc had to offer i mean alot can happen in two years... but i was quickly VERY QUICKLY reminded of all the hit he put me through and how i dont really trust males because of him...and immedialty told myself no... HELL NO SCHEHERAZADE.!! ARE YOU CRAZY BiTCH.?! but he continued to execute his plan by sayin... "dont think about it... we'll just see what happens" so i had to fall back and re evaluate this situation... & came to this conclusion...i will continue to do Schae... bcuz im having sooooo much fun... and if he was serious about all the things he said(i didnt include details dont need yall knowing everything....lol) then he will do what he needs to do to have it... its just that simple... theres no getting around that...


..mylife..