..my first love..

im not exactly sure when it began or why for that matter... all i know is i do... and everytime i think about you its just a confirmation not only to myself but to my heart... i never had to convience myself that it was true nor did i ever have doubt... i just knew... and maybe thats why all my other relationships failed to work... bcuz i already knew the truth... which would easily explain all the phone calls to you when things wouldnt go according to what i thought was "the plan"... it wasnt because you knew just what to say and when to say it but because just like me you already knew... and over time the thing that became soo small suddenly became an elephant in a room with no windows... its unavoidable... and ive come to terms with it... things happen the way they do to the people it does for a reason... and no matter how many different ways you try to avoid it no matter what you find yourself standing infront of a moutain that was only supposed to be there for 5days and now its been 5 years... i tired to tell myself that maybe i was crazy... and that things would never work in my favor... but then im reminded of our constant and less frequent conversation and i quickly remember "oh yea he gets me.!" and i just leave it alone... bcuz i know that patience is a virtue... but. my doubt in it overall aside from you has me scared that it wont happen at all... but "in due time" thats what im told... so i will continue to be that woman you just sits there.. and constantly understand... with a belly full of patience & a caring hand... but the one thing i know wont EVER change is that i love you.!



...yep thats still the same