..growing pains..

so as i sit here at work being somewhat productive i keep finding myself drifting off into thought of me and my Mr. Big... (who shall remain nameless) and over these past few days i have noticed that im falling back into some of my old practices when having a boyfriend... but this time for reasons that i didnt realize until recently... and i assume that it has alot to do with me getting older... but there are just things that say a year ago id put up with from my guy friends that were interested that now in this relationship im not soo willing... and the softee in me wants to let things slide and just be okay w. it, but i know the truth and know that its wont be okay and that makes it just that much easier to say no this time around... so im sorry for any hurt feelings that may (or may not) occur but i told myself that from now on i was going to take care of me first...