..there cant be two Alpha's..

so as i come to an end of reading the Twilight series in a mear two weeks the only thing that i can think about right now is how "there cant be two Alphas" and how a pack will seperate and follow whom ever they see fits them not the other way around... i never realized how that could apply to the real world until i was down to nothing because God is up to something... with this realization i also noticed that im mad...angry actually and really sad, or maybe hurt would be a better choice of words... but i know that im the Alpha in my own life and that i can no longer allow the person who taught me all the time, encouraged me to always do right and to ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS remain a lady didnt even consider my feelings... reguardless if the situation was wrong they NEVER thought about how it would leave me emotionally and mentally weak... even if wasnt my fault that doesnt change the way EVERYONE that was envolved actions would affect me...especially since they were the person that was envolved the most...and thats the part that hurts the worst...